January 12th

Some day I’m going to stop trying and fade away, and you aren’t even going to notice until it’s too late.

20100112 @ 2119
January 11th

Anything anyone else says or does will change nothing and will not make you love me.

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20100111 @ 0016
January 10th

I’m the only one to blame

Someday.. You’ll want it back again someday.

20100110 @ 1356
January 9th

Why do I have to be such a fucking jealous bitch all the goddamn time?

It’s the parts where you don’t really care how often you see me. Oh, I’m fucking sorry. I wish I could be that person for you, the best friend, you know. I’m fucking sorry that I’m like this. Depressed as all get out and I can’t fucking take it because I know it pushes you away.

And I miss you all the goddamn time, fuck fuck fuck.

20100109 @ 2301

Tell me, what’s the word?

I feel like this is all being shoved in my face. You know, you have that and I don’t.

I almost feel like copping out and saying, you know, maybe just you two should go and enjoy yourselves - Who the fuck needs me around?

20100109 @ 0941
January 7th

I can’t believe how you looked at me

I try to pretend like it’s all happy fucking go lucky without you, but it’s not. I try to act like I don’t give a damn about you but I can’t fucking take it.

There’s no one else, I’m sorry.

It hurts, every time. Every fucking time.

20100107 @ 0011
January 4th

A friend who won’t betray

I hope that I’m just paranoid and you aren’t getting upset about her again. I hope it is just my imagination and you only need time and space.

20100104 @ 0040
January 1st

He will wait until you give yourself to him

That’s exactly it. Why would you want anything to do with me?

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