So I can feel you in my arms

I missed the blurring lines. Not that they ever really went away, just. Just. Tonight. You knew what you were doing, even if it seems like nothing. You were just sitting on my feet, for fucks sake. But it says so much, and I miss it. And all the things you do, they say things too, and I miss it when it’s not there. I know it’s nothing at all (or maybe it isn’t) but I’m glad it’s still happening now.. even if I know it means you’re going to ignore me now. But it’s okay. Space is good, it’s all good, as long as there’s still something. (it’s not what I really, really want obviously, but I’ll take what I can get.)

Just.. I can’t espress to you.. what you do to me. I can’t say what I want, because I’ve already gone there and it’s up to you now. I can see what’s happening now, and I’m so glad.. And I want you to just say you’re mine, that’s it. But I know you can’t right now, and I know it’s not best right now, and that’s how life is. And I’m okay. Time will come.

There’s still no one else. And my feelings have maybe even gotten stronger.