I will want to take this all back when I wake up

I wrote a bunch of bullshit here and deleted it because i feel better. And because I shouldn’t say things I don’t mean. I will leave the last part:

I’m glad it’s not someone else and it’s just that you’re not super social, and I’m sorry for venting like this.. But you make me sad sometimes, and you frustrate me sometimes, and I need to say words that I can’t say to you because then you’d probably never speak to me again. It’s only because I care, and I always have to take advantage of things, and I’m sorry.. I’m so, so sorry. For being me and being a pain in the ass.

But, I have to remember.. At least it’s not someone else. It’s still me. If you don’t want to see me, fair enough - not my problem.